Pilot

  Let us start from the beginning,

I have never been one to stand out, I was always the quiet one; I guess I still am. I will never be the girl that everyone's jaw drops at the sight of, and no matter how much I try.. I'll never be a twig either. I've had a dark couple of years recently, but that's another story. Anyway, because of the gloomy past.. I'm trying to see things in a lighter sense. I defiantly can't do it alone though, I have many things that are helping me along the way. I've got my best friend, Katy, she is my rock; I've got Shelby too, she is my roll ( ha! see what I did there). Not only do my dear friends help me, but so does my social media. I know what you're thinking, "Isn't that supposed to make it worse?" Well, no it doesn't, it helps me in so many ways, such as Youtube, that right there is my life. I follow so many virtual lives, it's sad really. They do help me a lot in different ways though. Another is, well look at this blog for instance, some place to put my thoughts and feelings down. The internet though can be a weapon, but also some forget just how beautiful it can be.

  Like I said, I'll probably never be Kim Kardashian and break the internet, I am and will for ever be a Plain Jane. I feel that isn't in my favor, especially when it comes to relationships. I've been friend zoned, picked on, and even have been bro punched, but never have I been given any sign of a romantic gesture. It's always the people around me, the guys I like pick even my friends over me. 

  I don't hate the world, just the people that's in it. I mean they're are some truly stupid people in this world, it physically hurts me. That's why I've always been one to isolate myself, because it saves me from the headache. One thing that I can't live without is music, it is my security blanket, my safe place. I can attach to the emotions of the artist and feel what they feel at that very moment. I can even close my eyes and see what they are describing, I get lost in another world. No matter if its dreams, or music.. I always have to come back to reality. The reality that is my life, the most boring and the most shortest biographic novel you have ever read. This blog will probably be boring too, but I guess its for me anyway. -Andrea