Be You.

  Okay, so I am a bit blank tonight, so I'll just let my mind wonder and see how it goes. Lately, I've had a lot on my mind. A lot of stress, it's causing me physical pain... Panic attacks are at their strong point lately. I'm trying to just get through all of this, and get it over with. A wise man once said, "If you're going through Hell, keep going." So that's the game plan for life right now, because remember? Regression to the mean; It always comes back to the middle. I'm having a lot of anxiety, it's all a bit to much sometimes.
  Just because bad things are happening, small things are still good, so lets talk about them. I'm starting to find myself, it's taking very small steps.. but still steps indeed. I would actually like to state something, I like to describe myself and the things I enjoy as Indie. People seem to find me cliché when I say that. They connect Indie to Hipster when they are two completely different things. Indie, is a shortened term from the word Independent; meaning, free from outside control; not depending on another's authority. Hipster just means following the latest trend and or fad. So it bothers me when people make fun of the music or films I watch because they're different and people think I'm just trying to be cliché. My music, films, books, and clothing are all important to me and people seem to forget that. They just see it all as a joke, with anything anybody does.. They're are always those people who can't accept the things that make you happy... For instance, my family. They are very critical about what I do and what I enjoy. It is sad when I have to sneak certain thing to avoid the criticism. They call me a Hippie, which there is nothing wrong with that in my opinion.. but it isn't what I am, I just see the world in a different way. My family are always so 'proud' of my creativity.. but when it's time to actually be creative, it's wrong. I sometimes wish I could just go to a rehab center for my stress and come back in like a year, then maybe I'd be appreciated and missed. I see things and people through the inside, and I see the outside as their canvas expressing themselves. I wish others would too. It's okay to be who you are, because you are loved.

This is who I am.

 

 

 

 

Song of the day: Moon Dust- Jaymes Young. : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tL241A5132k